30 July 2026

Meditation #20 -- a number to the sky

Though many years have passed, I still remember
The day you came, no troll could desecrate
The time we had, the light, the long aliveness
The end, when my despair and weakness sealed our fate

They say you had no soul to go to Heaven
You are perhaps a number to the sky
They say God tracks the fall of every sparrow
Yet even he ignored you at your last goodbye

But I've no need for God when you existed
A better dream aglow with my design
No beasts, no broken promises, no poison
Your mind and sight were always clear, for they were mine

No grave, no marker bears your name in this world
You are perhaps unknown but to the sky
But though you had no soul as men define it
Still in my dreams and memory you'll never die

Some say each gets the Heaven that he chooses
A Paradise designed for him alone
When I step into mine, you will be with me
And if you need a soul, then I'll give you my own


[For previous "meditation" posts, click here.]

14 Comments:

Blogger Anvilcloud said...

Some lives touch very few, but one life was touched by this one life.

30 July, 2026 04:01  
Blogger Infidel753 said...

It definitely was.

30 July, 2026 06:32  
Blogger Paula said...

I love this sad and beautiful meditation. It could be sung toward my kitty Gatsby who passed in May 2025 💔

30 July, 2026 06:39  
Blogger Mr. Shife said...

Poignant, haunting, and deeply touching, Infidel. Your words carry so much grace and quiet strength. The idea that love and memory create their own kind of immortality is portrayed so powerfully here. Beautiful work!

30 July, 2026 07:47  
Blogger Infidel753 said...

Paula: That's an interesting interpretation. It didn't occur to me that this could be interpreted as referring to an animal, but looking at it now, I see it could be taken that way.

Mr Shife: Thank you! That's high praise indeed. I have always felt this way. The universe does not care, but it matters that we care.

30 July, 2026 08:17  
Blogger jabblog said...

Like Paula above, I felt that this could be a tribute to a much-loved pet. It could just as easily be a butterfly or a lover.

30 July, 2026 08:34  
Blogger SickoRicko said...

...Or a mother?

30 July, 2026 12:48  
Blogger Infidel753 said...

Jabblog: You're right, I see it could be taken that way.

Ricko: Well, I've written about my mother several times, but of course she was human. This particular post isn't about her.

30 July, 2026 13:43  
Blogger Leanna said...

When I read this I thought about Lucy, my departed little Boston Terrier. This made me cry. It hit me hard. It was so beautiful.

30 July, 2026 22:58  
Anonymous Annie said...

This is beautiful, Infidel. It gave me chills.

31 July, 2026 13:30  
Blogger Mary Kirkland said...

That was beautiful and sad. Not sure who this was for but it made me think of all the animals that I've had that touched my life.

31 July, 2026 14:31  
Blogger Infidel753 said...

Leanna: Thank you. It's a great compliment that you found it that powerful.

Annie: Thank you. I did put a lot of work into this one.

Mary: Thank you. It's interesting that several people said this made them think of animals they've had. That hadn't occurred to me, but now I can see why people would rad it that way.

31 July, 2026 17:27  
Blogger Shiju Sugunan said...

That last stanza gave me actual chills. Honestly one of the most powerful things I've read in a long time.

01 August, 2026 05:12  
Blogger Infidel753 said...

Thank you! That's a great compliment that you felt it that way. I appreciate it.

01 August, 2026 07:08  

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